I can't stand lieing. If something bothers you, say it. Don't pretend that everything is ok and then magically have a problem later. Life has been getting a little hectic and I am feeling like there is a little bit of a crazy edge to it.
I am getting more and more nervous about the big decisions to come. It's like I want to say that I am fine, but I worry. I can't lie, I am too blunt, I don't want to be honest for fear of hurting the ones I love so I stay quite. It makes me a hypocrite and I know it. I say one thing and then feel as if I do another sometimes.
Screaming has been helpful, crying has also been beneficial to just venting and being a good release. I know there are other ways to release.... I just haven't had time for anything like that. Im sure it will get better, won't it?
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