Hug

Sometimes you just need a hug so that the world understands that you are not ok. Keeping emotions inside is easier than letting them out.... I think I just need a hug today.

Have you ever kept something from the world that you knew you shouldn't?
What Was it?

Sometimes it just takes a hug to make everything ok.

Bite Me

I can't stand lieing. If something bothers you, say it. Don't pretend that everything is ok and then magically have a problem later. Life has been getting a little hectic and I am feeling like there is a little bit of a crazy edge to it.

I am getting more and more nervous about the big decisions to come. It's like I want to say that I am fine, but I worry. I can't lie, I am too blunt, I don't want to be honest for fear of hurting the ones I love so I stay quite. It makes me a hypocrite and I know it. I say one thing and then feel as if I do another sometimes.

Screaming has been helpful, crying has also been beneficial to just venting and being a good release. I know there are other ways to release.... I just haven't had time for anything like that. Im sure it will get better, won't it?

Sometime's Just a Kiss Tells You....

that you are worth everything in the world.

I use to think that I was not worthy of being cared about. I know it sounds harsh and dramatic, but in the grand scheme of things people in this society always doubt their actual value and what they are worth. The greatest example of this I could see would be in my mom's recent dating life. She gets just as nervous as I use to when I was younger and had a boy that liked me. Aren't those the good days? Always doubting and questioning what to do and if they like you or what not? I had an epiphany and I am sure I will have more of them as my life continues to grow and change. I am a catch, I know-as I tell my friends- that it sounds conceited, but thats the mentality you have to approach life with. I feel incredibly blessed that the people who have come to believe that idea are the ones that are closest to me in my life. I dont have to worry about being appreciated or being taken for granted and that is a great feeling. If there is two things you should ask yourself from this post today it's this...


What is your worth? Who makes you feel that way?


I've been lucky to find mine, but it starts at believing that yourself before you can allow and have the same standard for others.

Just for Monkey: proof that Canada is Better than the USA

http://www.ifitweremyhome.com/

Here is a picture brought all the way from Alberta, isn't it gorgeous?

Reach for the Stars

So I officially have a new job, I wonder how many people are searching right now. IS the economy really as bad as they say? Is it that hard to get a new job with the right qualifications and abilities? I have felt unbelievably blessed, after putting myself out there and really going for it I have been given the opportunity to excel and show the world what I can do.

What's your dream job? What interests you in it? How are you working toward that goal?


I set goals in my life and I feel that those goals are going to come to me because I am willing to work for them. What are yours? Are you really trying to accomplish them? Do you feel that you are scared of failure?


Corinne

To Love or not to Love?

How can a feeling that is so completely not tangible, consume the being that is my heart? Why is it so easy to care so deeply for someone who gives you nothing but happiness? I guess there is fear in losing that, in making wrong decisions that would eventually lead to the worst case scenario, the break up. I mean I am always so sure about things but this one little feeling rocks my world. I think I value myself and who I am as a person and feel that I finally found someone who sees me as, I know it sounds conceited, but as great as I see myself. I'm not saying worship or anything like that but respects me and who I am. He loves me for my faults and my attributes. It's a really hard thing to accept and not question, but with him I have been able to quite well. I am just so happy and its like the pieces in my life are falling together. Just so you all know I have had a bunch of interviews this week, yea I am worn down and tired from it all, but it was so exciting to know that I get to make a decision on my career path. I get to say yes or no and have options. Now it's just up to which road to go. He's helped so much, and I think he doesn't even realize it. We haven't seen eachother for a couple days with all my LSAT studying, interviews and time with Monkey( My best friend, just a nick name not an mean cover name or anything ;) ). I need him and time with him just like I need time with her. They are a huge part of my support system and each have monumental things to say and do in my life. How did I get so lucky?




Do you have anyone in your life that means as much to you, or supports you in the things you do? Have you told them how much they mean to you yet?


Love,
Corinne

Money makes the world an Ugly Place

Money, it consumes us, it fuels us, it takes us out of our element and rearranges our lives. With all that being said we fight for it, we think we are worth more, we can be made to feel that we're worth less, its a perpetual cycle. why is money so important? If it doesn't make your life better then it just stresses you out and makes your life worse. Crazy.


Thoughts?

Oh yea buddy!

Morning

why does it seem that morning comes so early? I mean come on sun do I really need to get up when you do? Yes I know you work a larger schedule than a nine to five like I will hopefully be doing sooner than later, but just because you have to get up, does not mean I should have to share in your pain. So my boyfriend does this to me every morning that we stay together. He wakes up at about five to leave the apartment or house around 5:30 am. He comes in, uncovers me and gives me a kisses and love before he takes off for the day. I dont mind the kisses and love, its the wake up. I guess I can be considered a hypocrite though, because if he didn't do it I am sure that would lead to a fight or two. The thing my mom always taught me is that you don't know what is going to happen in the day. Your loved ones could die, or you might die. That little fear is enough to ensure I always say good bye to my mom and loved ones when we go our separate ways. Dont get me wrong I dont think I am going to die everyday, but you dont know what the day holds. In the last two years I have been in two car accidents that, not only were terrifying, but I didn't see them coming. A regular day can always have twists and turns that you don't see. I bet this is not all that interesting to cyberspace, but have you ever thought about it? what if I died tomorrow? In an hour? five minutes? Have I said and done everything that I want to in my life? Have I told those I care about that I do? It will get you thinking for sure. I feel it makes sure I always live life to it's fullest and stop and see the beauty in the little moments in the day. Those are moments I live for. Here's a pic of what I am talking about. Just a quick stop on a mountain road and this was my view.

We never see the beauty around us until we stop and take notice.

Simple to Start

Now to start off I dont know why you are even reading this. I mean seriously don't you have something better to do than read my little thoughts that flit through my brain in the course of the day? Alright well if I haven't offended you by now then I guess you will be able to handle the many, and sometimes inappropriate thoughts that may follow. No for all you in the mind set of a thirteen year old boy, I am talking about inappropriate in the sense of topics that most people are scared to discuss publicly for fear of criticism. I am looking for feedback, conversation,and even debates over the ideas I present. Please be respectful as I have nothing but respect for other people's thoughts and feelings. I hope you all will enjoy reading this as much as I will enjoy writing, sometimes a vent is the best way to clear one's head, and in turn, make a difference.

I know I sounded boring but as the initial post I think I am entitled :) Enjoy!