Let it snow, Let it snow, Let it snow

Welcome back to my blog, I am so sorry it has been so long since I've updated. Life has been a little crazy, I will try to explain in the later part of this post. But let me begin from what prompted me to post..

So I am sitting here in my house, cuddled up with my dogs and drinking a steaming cup of Starbucks Christmas blend coffee... it's going to be a good day. On a side note we have gotten a ton of snow. It's crazy that we go years without a white Christmas here in Colorado and it looks like this may be the year of not just snow but potentially blizzard conditions. The snow gives me a perfect reason to stay at home and enjoy my family, too bad I have meetings and dance class that I need to attend this weekend, guess I will be braving the snowy roads after all.

On a more general note, life has a funny way to handing you some suprises. I will be an auntie any day now :) I can't wait to see the little baby Jayden and celebrate the new addition to our already extended and loving family. Work has been great, a couple job transitions, lots of experience, and the perfect position has been earned. I work from home for the Senior Management Team of Apple's Call Center. It is pretty much one of the best positions I have ever gotten. I have a brand new mac that I work on, I am always busy, and the team I work with is unbelievable. Also as a side project I am starting to run my social media managment and SEO service for small business owners looking to expand and develop their brand. It's so exciting to help them get started and established.
I have been a busy bee though. I am registered to start school in January to get my Masters in Psychology, in a couple years you may be even looking at the first doctor in the family :) I want my focus to be child development and psychology so I am going to start where I know I need to.

Well that is the general update on my life. Alan and I are doing wonderful, we have added a new canine addition to the family, Sheerah and Milo could not be happier to have someone to play with. I hope you all will check out my website and let me know what you think! May you all be blessed this Holiday Season!!!

www.socialmediamanagercorinnekindoll.wordpress.com

Let it snow Let it snow Let is snow! Happy holidays!!

-Corinne Kindoll
ckkindoll@gmail.com
303.503.7125

Sometimes Settling Isn't an Option

I took some time and tried to think today why I have this constant sinking feeling in my stomach when I think of what I do and where I can go with it. I keep thinking to myself, is this where I want to be in life? Is this what I want to be doing with my life? How much of this truly speaks to my heart and soul? The answer hasn't come to me yet, but a very wise and wonderful woman gave me some advice on how to make my life mine and to take control of what I feel may be slipping through my fingers.

1.Make a plan of action

2. Hold to that plan no matter what- you are only as strong as your dedication to your own happiness.

3. Enjoy your accomplishments, no matter how small- progress is progress and should be celebrated.



I think I have made a plan and now I just need to stick to it. I can do this, I can make my life what I want it to be, I can better myself no matter where I am or what I am doing. Wish me luck!




Always an uphill battle- but I will make it.

Corinne

In True Romantic fashion....

So this week was a challenge. I had to survive without seeing my boyfriend or my best friend at all. Yes there were phone calls and text messages, but when you miss people you miss people. No I am not dependent on them I just enjoy my loved ones company.

I sat all week at my desk working away and making small achievements on my tasks, going to a speaking event here, setting up the arrangements for another there, and all over just getting my stuff done. Then, when I least expected it I recieved a gorgeous bouquet of flowers. There were Lillies of the world, roses, pink carnations, red and orange and yellow, babies breath, and a myriad of other beautiful accent flowers. I grabbed the note after the shock wore off and there on the page were words that will forever mean so much to me " For the woman I love, I miss you more than you know, but I will be there before you know it!" How can someone know me so well that I would need a pick me up when my loved ones are gone? How did I get so lucky to have him in my life? But above everything else How can I love someone so much?


Alan has been away all week at a training in Texas for his company, but it was once of the best tests of our relationship because when he's not here we still keep connected and miss each other.

The picture is posted on my Facebook- check it out if you want to see what I am talking about

I love you Alan, you are wonderful!

Flowers and Love

These are some of my favorite, roses are too common for the unique and beautiful women who exist in my life.

Any girl who tells you that she doesnt like getting flowers... is lying. Every girl, at the core of their being loves to be embarassed at work, suprised at home, or have a random bouquet waiting for her somewhere. I don't believe that the only time of the year guys she get girls flowers is on Valentine's day, but at least it can be used as a good reason.


Flowers do not equate to love, but can help to show a romantic side at unexpected moments.

Guys you taking notes?

Born to rule: Siblings

So there is something to be said about being born first. You are held to a different standard, you always get last picks on things, and to top it off, you are the protector and provider for all those that follow you. Yes I know parents take care of their children as is their job, but the real truth is that siblings are there to care for eachother when parents no longer can. Whether that be through passing away, or just in every day tasks and, my favorite, at school.

My younger brother and I have had a relationship that would be uncommon to most people. We actually like and get along with eachother. Yes we have the regular sibling battles and push eachothers buttons as is customary, but the truth is we do love and care for eachother.

Through losing our father at a young age, instead of  falling apart we, as a family unit, banded together. I can't tell you how many times Matt and I have gone to blows with eachother over stupid things. I think that is the true test of a friendship and sister/brotherhood. How well can you take a beating and still love and care about eachother?

Matt, my brother, just in case you all didn't catch on, is a very interesting individual. He put my head through dry wall when we were younger, and honestly I couldn't love him more. We get along, and we help eachother.

Do you have siblings?Do you care for them as much as you can?

Have you ever thought that after your grandparents, parents, and other family members pass away, that your sibling is all you could end up having? Hard to think about isn't it?

Yes they annoy us and push us beyond our sanity, but when it comes down to it, your siblings are your blood and you should always stay connected to that.

For my brother, *I love you even when you piss me off*,

CORINNE



Well,

When your body aches and cries out for salvation from the beating you put it through- then you know you've done what you're suppose to. When muscles are fatigued and your brain can barely think through another segment of working out, that is when you know- You're on the right path.

Weird and scary how these ideas are the ones that people believe in, adopt to lose weight, fit the idea of beautiful, and in general feel better about themselves.

Shouldn't we begin with the thought that we are beautiful inside and out?

Answer is Yes we should, but society and media tells us that the only beautiful is rail thin. Don't get me wrong, I know everyone wants to believe that there is a new movement where big is beautiful, but the facts are, this is not How many times have you sat there and looked at a section of your body and thought- "well I could lose a couple pounds here","ugh I hate how my belly jiggles like that", "Goodness I look so bloated and chubby today", "If only I were a size 4 then I'd be 100% content".

How sad is it that those are the thoughts and items that issue out of a large part of the population?

Accept yourself for who you are, Don't ever allow yourself the thought that you are anything but perfect. There is something to be said for getting Healthy and Fit, it's a completely different beast when it consumes you and makes you question your self worth.



I love you all and think each of you is amazing,

Corinne

Hug

Sometimes you just need a hug so that the world understands that you are not ok. Keeping emotions inside is easier than letting them out.... I think I just need a hug today.

Have you ever kept something from the world that you knew you shouldn't?
What Was it?

Sometimes it just takes a hug to make everything ok.

Bite Me

I can't stand lieing. If something bothers you, say it. Don't pretend that everything is ok and then magically have a problem later. Life has been getting a little hectic and I am feeling like there is a little bit of a crazy edge to it.

I am getting more and more nervous about the big decisions to come. It's like I want to say that I am fine, but I worry. I can't lie, I am too blunt, I don't want to be honest for fear of hurting the ones I love so I stay quite. It makes me a hypocrite and I know it. I say one thing and then feel as if I do another sometimes.

Screaming has been helpful, crying has also been beneficial to just venting and being a good release. I know there are other ways to release.... I just haven't had time for anything like that. Im sure it will get better, won't it?

Sometime's Just a Kiss Tells You....

that you are worth everything in the world.

I use to think that I was not worthy of being cared about. I know it sounds harsh and dramatic, but in the grand scheme of things people in this society always doubt their actual value and what they are worth. The greatest example of this I could see would be in my mom's recent dating life. She gets just as nervous as I use to when I was younger and had a boy that liked me. Aren't those the good days? Always doubting and questioning what to do and if they like you or what not? I had an epiphany and I am sure I will have more of them as my life continues to grow and change. I am a catch, I know-as I tell my friends- that it sounds conceited, but thats the mentality you have to approach life with. I feel incredibly blessed that the people who have come to believe that idea are the ones that are closest to me in my life. I dont have to worry about being appreciated or being taken for granted and that is a great feeling. If there is two things you should ask yourself from this post today it's this...


What is your worth? Who makes you feel that way?


I've been lucky to find mine, but it starts at believing that yourself before you can allow and have the same standard for others.

Just for Monkey: proof that Canada is Better than the USA

http://www.ifitweremyhome.com/

Here is a picture brought all the way from Alberta, isn't it gorgeous?

Reach for the Stars

So I officially have a new job, I wonder how many people are searching right now. IS the economy really as bad as they say? Is it that hard to get a new job with the right qualifications and abilities? I have felt unbelievably blessed, after putting myself out there and really going for it I have been given the opportunity to excel and show the world what I can do.

What's your dream job? What interests you in it? How are you working toward that goal?


I set goals in my life and I feel that those goals are going to come to me because I am willing to work for them. What are yours? Are you really trying to accomplish them? Do you feel that you are scared of failure?


Corinne

To Love or not to Love?

How can a feeling that is so completely not tangible, consume the being that is my heart? Why is it so easy to care so deeply for someone who gives you nothing but happiness? I guess there is fear in losing that, in making wrong decisions that would eventually lead to the worst case scenario, the break up. I mean I am always so sure about things but this one little feeling rocks my world. I think I value myself and who I am as a person and feel that I finally found someone who sees me as, I know it sounds conceited, but as great as I see myself. I'm not saying worship or anything like that but respects me and who I am. He loves me for my faults and my attributes. It's a really hard thing to accept and not question, but with him I have been able to quite well. I am just so happy and its like the pieces in my life are falling together. Just so you all know I have had a bunch of interviews this week, yea I am worn down and tired from it all, but it was so exciting to know that I get to make a decision on my career path. I get to say yes or no and have options. Now it's just up to which road to go. He's helped so much, and I think he doesn't even realize it. We haven't seen eachother for a couple days with all my LSAT studying, interviews and time with Monkey( My best friend, just a nick name not an mean cover name or anything ;) ). I need him and time with him just like I need time with her. They are a huge part of my support system and each have monumental things to say and do in my life. How did I get so lucky?




Do you have anyone in your life that means as much to you, or supports you in the things you do? Have you told them how much they mean to you yet?


Love,
Corinne

Money makes the world an Ugly Place

Money, it consumes us, it fuels us, it takes us out of our element and rearranges our lives. With all that being said we fight for it, we think we are worth more, we can be made to feel that we're worth less, its a perpetual cycle. why is money so important? If it doesn't make your life better then it just stresses you out and makes your life worse. Crazy.


Thoughts?

Oh yea buddy!

Morning

why does it seem that morning comes so early? I mean come on sun do I really need to get up when you do? Yes I know you work a larger schedule than a nine to five like I will hopefully be doing sooner than later, but just because you have to get up, does not mean I should have to share in your pain. So my boyfriend does this to me every morning that we stay together. He wakes up at about five to leave the apartment or house around 5:30 am. He comes in, uncovers me and gives me a kisses and love before he takes off for the day. I dont mind the kisses and love, its the wake up. I guess I can be considered a hypocrite though, because if he didn't do it I am sure that would lead to a fight or two. The thing my mom always taught me is that you don't know what is going to happen in the day. Your loved ones could die, or you might die. That little fear is enough to ensure I always say good bye to my mom and loved ones when we go our separate ways. Dont get me wrong I dont think I am going to die everyday, but you dont know what the day holds. In the last two years I have been in two car accidents that, not only were terrifying, but I didn't see them coming. A regular day can always have twists and turns that you don't see. I bet this is not all that interesting to cyberspace, but have you ever thought about it? what if I died tomorrow? In an hour? five minutes? Have I said and done everything that I want to in my life? Have I told those I care about that I do? It will get you thinking for sure. I feel it makes sure I always live life to it's fullest and stop and see the beauty in the little moments in the day. Those are moments I live for. Here's a pic of what I am talking about. Just a quick stop on a mountain road and this was my view.

We never see the beauty around us until we stop and take notice.

Simple to Start

Now to start off I dont know why you are even reading this. I mean seriously don't you have something better to do than read my little thoughts that flit through my brain in the course of the day? Alright well if I haven't offended you by now then I guess you will be able to handle the many, and sometimes inappropriate thoughts that may follow. No for all you in the mind set of a thirteen year old boy, I am talking about inappropriate in the sense of topics that most people are scared to discuss publicly for fear of criticism. I am looking for feedback, conversation,and even debates over the ideas I present. Please be respectful as I have nothing but respect for other people's thoughts and feelings. I hope you all will enjoy reading this as much as I will enjoy writing, sometimes a vent is the best way to clear one's head, and in turn, make a difference.

I know I sounded boring but as the initial post I think I am entitled :) Enjoy!